Set yourself free

The pressure of having everything you want is never enough. You’ll still be sad even after that. You might even be happy without doing anything. But these emotions go on and on.

What really feel like when you set yourself free? Firstly, you don’t expect people to do something for you. You feel a sense of relief. When I do something for someone, even if it’s just offering a helping hand, I used to expect a nice gesture from them. That’s the mistake I made. Why should I expect someone to react how I want them to? If I keep myself in their shoes, I wouldn’t react either.

When you set yourself free, life will give you things you didn’t overthink. Remember the time you went somewhere, and in your head, everything was so well planned out? But in reality, it was all different. It’s because it was all in your head and not in real life. When we imagine something, we lack other people’s involvement and only think about ourselves as the main character. This slowly loses its essence of reality, and that’s when we get upset if nothing happens according to our will.

Realising your potential is something many people neglect. We never truly feel ourselves enough for something, and so many emotions kick in at that time. We don’t reach towards our potential and waste energy on others. We waste our potential for other people’s attention, and this is where we believe that we are not ‘good enough to deserve good things’. Then disbelief grows.

But when you set yourself free from these emotions and truly look for your charm, you start to detach from people and start to reconnect with yourself.

Someone will smoke a cigarette where you’re standing. You can’t say no, you’ll just have to stand there. There will be people who do whatever they want, and you just exist. You can’t tell people to behave like you; you exist in your world, and they exist in theirs, because it’s everyone’s world.

Eventually, you figure it out. You hit rock bottom, move away from people, and write to heal something inside you. But some days, nothing works. You feel drenched in mud, so tough to get out. Day passes, and you feel the spark again.

That’s life: finding the spark again and again, moving on, trying to make it better, learning to say no, and progressing. It never comes all the way, but it happens. You’ve got no option but to live, so try living it better.

The progress you made won’t be seen when you want it to be. You’ll see it on a random Sunday morning, and the shape of your body gets better. You inhale a feeling of accomplishment, feeling like you did great somewhere.

You’ll feel it on a random night, how you didn’t care about the text anymore. In your mind, you think, “It’s not my thing anymore, I don’t care.”

You’ll feel it on the random coffee table when you’re in a conversation with your friend about a book or anything. You talk about it, and you feel a sense of knowledge in yourself. A butterfly in you tickles, “Hey girl, you know.”

You’ll perceive yourself differently when you make good choices for yourself and try to make a difference in yourself. That’s when it all feels right.

Sometimes, eat those yummy sandwiches and sleep without a nighttime routine. Give yourself rest.

Remember, reader, it’s never about a perfect date, a good partner, a loving family, or a great day at work. The little happiness lingers through the small gaps of imperfect moments.♡

Thank you for reading. I will see you next time :)